I actually wanted to start a blog for my dreams...I had a weird one last night! And I usually have weird dreams, one I even thought was good enough to turn into a movie, but I have since forgotten it. But before I forget this one here goes.....
A friend of mine from church invited me and my daughter to attend a holiday spot with them it was only for a night or two and so I decided to go. If I was to go with them I had to take a blue round pill and I guess so did my daughter. When we arrived at the destination, I began to change. It felt so weird, my wrinkles on my face started to smooth and my skin began to tighten. I looked at my friends and they were changing as well and looking at me smiling. I thought, what evil have they brought upon me?
They explained to me that I had become younger again and I was about 10 years younger. My daughter was also younger at about 2-3 yrs of age. I said to the people she will become a baby again? And they replied, she will look younger but she will still have her same mind. But it was only for a night or two and when I was ready to go back home, I just took another pill and I would return to myself again. It was a place they travelled to when they felt the need to feel rejuvenated and be young again. There were other people there who had arrived for the first time and one lady I even recalled saying, "I don't want to go back in years, it took me years to lose 50 kilos, I don't want to go back to that again!
So there I was, looking 10 years younger and then I found myself at the flat I lived in when I got pregnant with my daughter and there was her father, with his new family. I walked into a flat that looked empty, but his sister was actually living in it. A lot of his family members were there. I said to my girl, oh look there's your father, say hi dad. Then somehow it happened that I was talking to his sisters and him and how I felt that he needed to take more responsibility in his daughter's life. I said, you don't have to like me, but please love your daughter.
I recalled the story of when she was young and how she would talk to strangers at bus stops about dads and ask them if they had one. She would say "I don't have a dad, he died." I have no idea where or why she ever said that as she was only 3 or 4 yrs old.
Anyway, it was soon time to leave this enchanted place and before I did, I saw my daughter's dad with his new family. He had 3 kids and his partner had two of her own. I remember looking at his children with his new partner thinking that they were browner than my daughter. Anyway we were having prayers or something and he grabbed my hand and held onto it. I hoped that this was an indication that he wanted to be a part of our daughter's life.
Then it was time to go home. I took the blue pill and went back to reality. The friends who took me there had decided to stay for a while longer. When I came back, I saw some of my students and told them what had happened to me. Then the dream took me to a rugby game where some Canterbury kids were trying to argue with me that South Canterbury sucked and Canterbury ruled. Anyhoo, I later picked up a book that I had bought my daughter for her first Christmas. In it was a tale about a land enchanted by faeries where took a blue pill to become in your youth again. There was a huge warning at the end of it ... that anyone who had been there must never reveal what happened, it was to remain a secret. Well I didn't know about the warning until just then, no-one told me. It went on to say that I would surely die if the faeries ever found out that it had been revealed. I felt that my mission was to talk to my students (about 3 or 4 of them) to not say a word or hope that they would just forget about it.
There were other bits and pieces entangled into my web of dreams - helping a drunk boy that I knew with a broken arm on the street, I had bought loads of candy and I wanted to give the alcohol filled ones away, I also saw my aunty , her husband and their boys but I can't remember why.
Weird.
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